September Time To Remember

It's coming to a close.
It's been a changing month for me.

I am not the same.
I had to change some things this month.

It was a decision that was a must.
I see that I was not going any where.

I had to do some things.
I got down about some things that shouldn't have been.

I need not to go there anymore.
I had to change my thinking.

I needed to move on with my life.
There were things that were not for me any more.

How can I continue where I felt not welcomed.
It's hard when this happens.

May I see the good on not holding on to things.
May I go farther on down the road of life.

May I not see what has happen as a lost.
May I learn from what I have experience.

May this be a testimony of the LORD.
May I continue to bring glory to God,
in Jesus' name Amen.

Thinking & Believing

Happy Jewish New Year!

Sunset tonight: 7:03 PM cst

On the road of Hope leading into new things.
Where do I go from here?

I will keep moving.
I see that the Door of Hope is still open.
I believe that the LORD is with me.

May I see the end of that is there in hoping.
May the LORD guide me into the truth.
Amen!

What's Up America? Have FAITH In God

The crisis in the U.S.A. is the hot topic of our nation.
I don't know what is up next for the U.S.

But one thing that I know, we have to keep our FAITH in God.
Keeping our eyes on the LORD to see us through this ordeal.

This is not a surprise to God what has occurred.
God has His eyes on the situation.

Will God intervene in our affairs?
Will He have mercy on the U.S.?

God is with those who are with Him.
God is the source of all our needs.

We should not put our hopes in what we have as possesses.
We should place ALL our FAITH in the God's System.

It's a man made crisis or problem that we are facing.
It's God's solution that will get us out of this.

May the LORD show mercy on the U.S.
May we as the people of God keep the faith.

It the time to stand up.
It's time to be the people of God.

The world is shaken by what has happened.
Though the shake is there, we don't have to be shaken by what's there.

Stand in Faith that the LORD will guide us through this.
Stand believing that Jesus is in control.
Amen.

Last Days of September '08

It's the LORD's Day.
It's the last Sunday in September '08.

I have been enjoying these last days of September.
It's a different month this year.

I was more happier last year.
I don't expect some things to happened this September.

I have cross some new grounds.
I have less worry about some matters.

There were some things that were troubling me.
They seem not to be a bother to me anymore.

Those things seem not to be a burden to me anymore.
Perhaps I grew out of those things.

They have no importance to me.
I don't know what killed the want in those matters.

It's not apart of my life anymore.
It appears to be "died things" in my life.

May God guide me on into the rest of this month.
May I have happier memories.

May I see the good of what I have been through.
May next month be the month of harvesting,
in Jesus' name Amen.

Change In Some Things

I'm moving along with the changes that have been at hand.
It's a bit different.

The worship gathering with Jason Upton was wonderful last night.
I learned and received some revelation about some things in my life.

There are some who can't relate to me.
Or they can't understand me.

I have accepted some things that I can't change.
I have to move on with my life.

I am leaving things behind.
I have no idea where I am headed.

I believe that there is still hope.
I can continue to walk through the door of HOPE.

I have to get use to things.
What I use to do has little meaning now.

I can't see how I can switch in things like this.
It took a while to get it in my thinking.

I don't know why it took so long to sink in.
Life has it's ups and downs.

It took me a while to get clicked into this change.
I guess that I stopped in responding or reacting to some things.

Things has to come the hard way.
I had to change no matter what.

May the Lord guide me in these changes.
May I move in the right direction,
in Jesus' name Amen.

Off To New Things

The Spirit of the LORD during worship gathering touched my life.
I can see some things in a new light.

I've been blinded by things that stop me from moving forward.
I need to believe and seek the truth from God.

I need not to be a people pleaseres.
I need not to do what every one else is doing.

It is OK just to be me.
It is not necessary to pick up what others are doing.

God created me to be me.
I need not to copy others.

I am a unique human being.
I need not to be every ones friend.

I can be who God created me to be.
I need to stop comparing and looking at what others are doing.

It is OK to be different.
It is OK not to be apart of what the norm is up to.

May I see the beauty of just being me.
May I have the understanding that I can't relate to other in the same way I think.

May the blessings of the LORD be upon us as we go in to new things.
May the grace and mercy of the LORD be forever know to us.
Amen.

Life Changes

I get to go to a Jason Upton concert, tonight.
May we worship God in spirit and truth.

I have been thinking about how life changes.
It comes slowly and some times fast.
Things that make the changes in life.

I can see things not as there once were.
It is like I am an outcast.
But then again, I am at a new beginning.

Things have to change as the time in season changes.
There has to be a letting go of things completely.
Not to keep holding 0n to things that needs to let go.

This can be difficult at times.
There must be total release of what needs to go.
It's like when some one dies.

There has to be a separation.
Things have to change.
Things need to be dealt with in time.

In due progress there is a release.
The change is there.
The pressing on must be keep on and on.

May the Lord guide us in the changes in our life.

Continuing On Down The Road of Life

It is different.
I am doing other things in life.

I am doing my bests to forget what lays behind.
I'm pressing forward to the prize that is set before me.

Things can be challenging.
I don't want to go back to what I can out of.

I don't want to get in tangled into things.
Things that I can't change.

I need to keep pressings onward.
I need not to keep speaking of what I experienced.

I should just drop those things.
I should look at the bright side of things.

I don't have to do what I use to.
No matter how hard it may seem to leave things behind.

I believe that God has something better for me.
I should be praising God for where I am.

I give You thanks Father God.
You bring me through all that I need to go through.
I thank You for being with me through everything.

Season For Changes

I have been on facebook for a month.
I don't know how I did it.

It has to be by the grace of God.
I have made it this far.

I have 72 people who are listed as friends.
I haven't ask others to be add to my friends list.

I don't want them to be just a # added to my list.
Or is it just a face on facebook that is there?

I don't have many comments.
A few friends have made comments.

I've been trying to be friendly.
I've made comments as well.

I've been aware of some things in facebook.
Things that can depress me while I am looking at some things.

I have to have a new approach about being over there.
I am laying low for a season.

I don't want to share what I have been aware of.
I don't think that it's my imagination.

I need to have peace from what I have been noticing.
I need to take a break.

I hope that I can return.
I pray that I will change in the process.

But for now, I am exploring, learning, making discoveries,
journaling and being quiet from facebook.

I think that it is the best thing to do, for now.
I don't want to continue to torment myself.

It's not worth it.
The Lord is my joy.

May I see the end of what this thing is.
May I continue to journal without distraction.

Some Thoughts With Questions

Time has changed some things.
I am keeping on keeping on.

I notice on my main site that there are a lot less bloggers who blog.
I assumed that they left or have little to share.

I was exploring some thing on the Internet last week.
I discovered some things about myself.

It made me feel good.
What I have been doing in blogging is happening.
I don't receive a lot of comments.

It's some thing else that I am aware of.
I thank God for it.

May what I do be recorded and preserved.
May the light of God shine in what I do.

May I keep journaling no matter what.
May God inspire me in what I do.
Amen.

Thoughts Reflections

I have been thinking.
There are some things that have been troubling my thinking.
Do we really mean to know how people are?
Do we go through the motions asking?

I see that in some that I encounter on my way.
I feel that there is no real wanting to know how I am doing.
There are some who I frequently talk to now.

I don't know what happened.
I thought that we were friends.
I guess we are not.

They tend to not want to speak with me anymore.
I don't exist in their world no more.
Well, at list I see it that way.
No matter what I do...there is no interaction.

Should I just be quiet and leave them at there rest?
Letting them go and move on with my life?

I have no choice.
I can't pursue what isn't peaceable.

I am at a stand still while ending the pursue.
I can't keep hurting myself wondering if or when they will speak.
Whatever this was was for a season.

I don't want to bother them any more.
I don't need to waste my time in things that isn't there.
Those "Friends", I will see them on the other side of this life.

It is time for me to find other friends.
Friends who want to be friends.

Not just a name on a list or say that we are friends.
But For REAL friends...

Summer Time Ending

Happy Sunday!
The Lord's Day

It has been a GREAT Summer!
It's the ending of the season.
The time to get ready for another season.

The Fall Season starts at 10:44 AM on Monday.

In Season Of Changes

I have been sensing changes over this year.
The changes have been coming slowly.

I have been coming more in tune with things.
I believe that I have changed.

I have less things that I use to do.
I have another direction to go.

Things are not the same.
There are some who have changed.

I should not be trouble by this.
I pray for them.

I thank God for this new direction that I am on.
I don't know where I am headed.

The Lord will show me the way.
Amen.

3rd Friday In September

I am CHURCH.
It's my 15Th year at WOLC.
I came on the 3rd Friday in September.

I was a first time visitor.
I like Friday night church.
There is some thing different about it.
Sunday are traditional services.
Fridays are just non traditional.

I thank God for leading me to Friday night church.
I pray that I can continue to be apart of the Friday night Edition.

Thank You Jesus for allowing me to be saved.

Been Off To A New Beginning

I want the best of what the LORD has for me.
I have been thinking of changes in my life.
That time has come.

I am moving and going in another direction.
I don't know where this will lead me.
But I believe that the LORD is with me.

He will see me through the places where I should go.
He will teach me His ways.
He will guide me on the path of life He has for me.

May the LORD see me where He leads me.
May I not be afraid of these changes.
May I keep the faith in not knowing.
May I see the good that the LORD has for me.
AMEN.

Today's Anniversary

It has been an up and down day.
I kept the joy of the LORD.

This day will never be the same.
Things have changed.

I see a brand new beginning.
It's like I have a new church.

I see some people differently.
They are not the same.

At times I feel like a stranger to some.
I don't know what it is.

I will continue to walk in the joy of the LORD.
He is God.
He will never forsake me.

He is with me through thick and thin.
No matter how stupid, dumb or ignored I am,
God still loves me.

I am loved of God.
Surely Goodness and mercy shall follow me all of my days.

Keep looking upward for God for the answers.
Keep your faith in Christ.

Speaking in second person:
People will fail you.
Keep your trust in God.
People can deceive you.

You can deceive yourself.
Renew your mind with the word of God.
Hope in Him and not in yourself or people.

God is with you in all that you do for His glory.
Remember that.

Public Confession Anniversary Day

This is the day, I rededicated my life back to Jesus in 1993.
I did it at the church where I gather; WOLC.
I believe that I have grown in the last few years.

I have made some awareness of things that I did not know in the beginning.
I have been saved for about 10 1/2 years before going to church.

Since I been in church, I have been confused about some things.
I guess there have been different teachings and things over the years.
We get different revelation about things as we grow older in the LORD.

I thank God for the revelation that He allows me to receive.
May today be a start of some thing new and different.
May the LORD reveal more of Himself to me.
May I continue to follow Jesus with all that He has put into me.
Amen.

Eve Of Remembering

I have been thinking off and on about How I Was Drawn To God?
I don't know the actual day or time was.

I was sown the word of God through my family who believe in Jesus.
I may not know when I had the revelation of who Jesus is...
But the mean thing is, that I am a follower of Jesus Christ, The Son of the Living God.

Tomorrow marks another milestone.
I am celebrating 15 years of attending WOLC.
This is the church where I become a member of God's social community.

May the Lord continue to see me through my life in the body of church.
May I continue to grow and change for the glory of the Lord.

Moving On With Life

Life is coming in to a new direction.
I have a new attitude.

There are some people how have been avoiding me.
I don't know why.
I'm not worried about it.

I have to continue on with life.
If there are some who don't know me no more, let it be.

May the offense or whatever it be, Lord, bring peace to their souls.
I don't want to interfere in their lives any more.

Let my walk away without guilt of offense.
Forgive me of whatever has been done.

Help me to keep a steady mind set.
I thank You that You are my Father and Friend for live.

May I continue to have faithful friends that You have blessed me with.
Thank You in Jesus' name Amen.

2nd Sunday In September '08

This was the day that I started going to church back in 1993.
It was on September 12Th then.
As I gathered together as apart of the body of church,
I became aware of some things that I did not seen 15 years ago.

If I would have seem this back then,
I think I would not continued on in church.
I do know how I recognized this awareness today.
Over the past few years I have notice some things.
This year things are more obvious.

Now, that I see this, I pray that the grace of God will led me on.
I pray that God will direct me in what to do.
I pray for God's wisdom in doing the right things.

Church has been changing over the past many years.
It's not the same.
I have been changing as well.
I see some people in a new light in things.
Some are not the same.

There are some that appear don't know me any more.
It appears that they don't want any thing to do with me.
It appears that things that are done that are covered up things.
But I can't understand things.
Communications has stopped.
There is no feedback to very little interaction.

I got a revelation today.
The difference in friendships and relationships.
There is a big difference.

We can be friends with whosoever wants to be friends.
But in relationship that is not the case.
I have made a discovery that
I can't have relationship with some people.
Friends can turn on you at any time.
Relationships can end without warning.

I am beginning to acknowledge who are my friends.
I am checking who is who.
There have been not much interaction with some in my life.

I am thinking about who I can be in a relationship?
There is some connections in where a lot more is said by both parties.
In this case there is feedback
knowing what the other knows what the other is thinking.

What is a relationship?
I am not speaking of dating or having a mate.
I am speaking of friends who are just friends.
What do friends do to built up in to relationships?

This type of relationship has some things in common.
There is a likeness in the person.
There is no pretending about things.
These friends allow the other to have fun to be themselves.

Friends on the other hand, have a friendship
but doesn't go this far.
There is no true interaction with one another in time of needs.

There is the going through the motions
of saying hello to one another.
There is a thinking that there is a relationship
but there is a deception going on.
Friends interact and share that could led into relationships.

It's the Dawn Of A Brand New Day.
Who are my friends?
Who do I have as my friends?
I can I build friendship into a relationship from friends?

This week, I am thinking about who's who in my list of friends.
I have to move on from the ones who are friends but nothing there.
I have to make decision in what to do.

May the LORD grant me the grace and see me through.
May the ones who call me friends, be friends.
May the ones who need to end our friendship, leave.
May I walk away from those who I need to walk away from.
May I end the friendship that I thought were so.

May I see the good of what I learned today.
May I continue to walk with my head up high.
May I not be down when see others who were friends.
May God send faithful friends into my path of life.
May I be a faithful friend in Jesus' name,
Amen.

Special Week

This is the 2nd Sunday of September. This is the 15 th anniversary of my attending to church. It was on Sunday September 12, 1993.

I did not know back then that this would be the start of some thing very special. My life was changed that week. I am on a journey of a lifetime.

I want to keep looking forward into what is to come. I don't want to turn back into where I came from. I am so glad that Jesus came into my life.

May the Lord continue to bring more of Himself into what He wants me to be doing. I pray that I yearn to know Jesus each and every day of my life.

Thoughts Of The Week

It has been a long week.
There were a lot of unexpected things that happened.
I thank God for seeing us through things.

I am thankful that two of my brothers and their families made it through Hurricane Ike.
I am thankful that my nephew is a true champion that made it in the NFL.
I am thankful that my another nephew's cut was not too bad of a cut and is healing.
I am thankful that my brother did not hurt himself when he fell.


I am thankful that God has His eyes are upon us always.
I am thankful that I have peace of mind about some things.
I am thankful that I can continue to walk with me head up high.

I am so thankful that God does not brush me aside.
I am thankful that God love me.
I am thankful that I can have a relationship with God.

The Storm IKE

I pray that those in the TX and surrounding areas are protected.
May the winds cease.
May the people take cover.
God shelter them from the storm in Jesus' name Amen.

15th Anniversary

It's my 15th year anniversary in coming to church. I started at a Baptist Church. By the end of the week, I started attending a Christian Church in which I rededicated my life back to Jesus.

I have been following Jesus with a new attitude since that week in 1993. I later became a member of WOLC a month later.

Church has changed over the years. People have come and gone. There are a lot new faces. In times passed I have changed.

I don't see things as I use to. There are some things of the past seem not to bother me. I am not apart of some things that I use to be a part of.

I have grown out of things. Things that don't mean anything. I am in a new season of life.

I like being apart of the church of Jesus Christ. The community where the word of God is taught. The place where the Spirit of the Lord dwells.

Thank You Lord for saving me. Thank You for allowing me to be apart of Your church. Guide me into what You have called me into in Your name I pray, Amen.

Reflecting On Some Things

I have been thinking these past days about some things in my life.
There are some things that are not the same.

My favorite player was released from the Titans yesterday.
So I have no NFL team to root for.

I am not much in to football.
The only reason why I got into the game
was because a relation was playing.
I'm not upset that my player was cut.

I have a lot less stress now about watching football.
I don't know what up next for my favorite player.
I believe he will get to try out for other teams.

On another subject:
There is a new road that I am on.
I am getting over the changes that are needed to move on.
I guess God has been working on me to make this move for awhile.

I am not too upset in the move.
It's seems well over do for me to let go.
I have freely let go of this situation.
I have to adjust to the changes.

What I am doing is a choose.
It may feel wrong or out of place.
But I must move on .

I have completely given those things to God.
It's in the hands of the LORD.
I feel more freer from the matter than ever.

I've giving these issues to God so long,
now I believe that I have totally given them to Him.
I have peace on those matters.

Now, I have to think on other things.
I'm thankful that God has given me the grace and mercy to move on.
I've been holding on to died things.
Things that needed to be buried.

Things that I thought that I was good for me.
I had no fruit in return.
I got burnt out on those matters.
It was not healthy for me to keep on doing what I was doing.

I have to paid the consequences in the matter.
I believe that God will see me through such things.
I've been refreshed as I am released from things.
I have no obligation in pursuing things
that continues to bring distractions.

I am looking forward into what is ahead for me.
I shouldn't worry if I am doing the wrong things or not.
If I am lead or have the desire to do things...
May the Lord lead me on.

Meanwhile I am enjoying life more.
I have a lot less stress on some things that were wearing me down.
It feel much better now.

God is so Good!
Thank You, Jesus!
Thanks for setting me free.
Thank You for setting me free from me.

9 /11

Remember to pray for the nations.
God is with us.
May He heal our land.
Amen.

Blogging Still

I have been journaling more on my main blog site. I am getting my mind off facebook. The more that I have been journaling and praying, there better I am feeling.

Facebook can depress me. There is so much there. I can't keep up with the "Jones." I am lost. I don't know much on who to program things. I feel like not a part of that website.

I have more freedom when I am alone. Blogging by myself not receiving feedback. It like this website. There is very little feed bakc here. I am in my own little world.

It like that I don't exist. Only the people who click on this site will be able to read what I post. I am a lot less stressed out on this weblog than the other three.

Here I have joy. There is no contest here. I know that I can find others to comment on. But what is the use of depressing myself.

As I have turned in a new direction. I am doing things in a new way. I have blogged so much since not going to facebook. I feel like I am back on track.

May the Lord continue to guide my steps in the direction in where I am headed.

Importing A Blog

Yesterday, I figured out on how to import a blog. I have been trying to do that for so long. I tried to as others. But none come show me how to do it.

I was lead to calm in blog on Xanga this the weblog. Now that I had done that, I could connect with facebook with my main site Xanga.

I hope that I don't blog to much so I will be disabled my notes. May the Lord guide me in what to share and not share.

A Break From Facebook

I think the most healthiest thing to do is
to take a break from facebook for some days this week.
I am focusing my energies on other matters of life.
I can stress myself out over things that should not matter.

I ask myself questions.
Why do I do what I do?
Is it baring any fruits?
Are things working for me or against me?

What is the purpose of doing things?
Is it to share?
Or is it to get others attention to respond to what I share?

I am at the point of not looking forward to those sites,
looking at what others say to one another.
I acknowledge that seeing what others do is not healthy for me now.
I am getting stressed out and depressed over such matters.
This should not be the case.

I am moving on down the road a lot farther than I expected.
I need to be refreshed.
I need to be restored.
I need to get my joy back.

May the Lord guide me on the way in which I should go.

Some Thoughts About Blog Sites

This year, I jointed facebook on August 24th.
It is not what I expected.
I have many friends there.
But most I don't know.
Nor do the most know me.

Now I feel like I am not apart of the facebook crowd either.
I feel like just a name and face added to majority on that website.

Three of my blog sites appear private blogs with very few real friends.
Friends are ones who communicated back and forth.
I can't explain what I want to say.

It has been depressing at times to visit the others blogs.
Their friends communicating with one another on an going basis.
I try to make comments or give feedback to them.
There is little to no feedback.

There are very few who interaction with my sites.
Now I tend not to want to be apart of what is going on.
I am not apart of things.
I feel like an outsider.

It's deceive in nature in what I have been experiencing.
Thinking that I can be apart of things with others.
I feel that there should be some feed back when making comments after comments.
It's like what's said is just there and has not meaning.

Today marks a very new beginning.
I don't know where it will lead me.
It's like I am on my own.

Blogging has turn into a private thing now.
I am just journaling my thoughts.
I have no interest in asking people to be my friends on my blog sites.

What is a friend?
Is it just to be added to a person's web site?
Is to let others know who is who's friends?

I don't know.
Friends talk and communicate.
I am beginning to see that friendship can end without warning.

There is a lack of communication.
There is a lack of things that end what was once in a friendship.
There is a lack of interaction in ones life.

What's left to do?
If I have to, I will continue my journaling journey alone.
I don't see this blogging world as a popularity contest.

I am relocation things on my blogger's journey.
I am on a new road.
I am building on New HOPE.

This road is a journey that leads to a better HOPE.
I will continue on this journey with or without my friends.
Blogging indeed has changed.

People are not the same.
I am not the same.
My journey of blogging has a new beginning.

May the Lord guide me on to this new road of HOPE.